In Esther chapter 2 after Queen Vashti refused to attend her king, we find he sent out his servants into the kingdom to find beautiful, young virgins who would be prepared to be King Ahasuerus’ new queen.

Which made me think of our King, Jesus, having lost the heart and obedience of His Queen, has gone out searching throughout the earth to find those with a pure heart, so they may be prepared to show off His power and glory.

He doesn’t care about their social standing, age or rank in life. He’s pulling them off the streets, from abusive homes, from prisons, the highways and byways of life because His own have made excuses and are just too busy with their life in this world to do His bidding. He’s preparing a people who will set aside their agenda for His own, who will leave father and mother, sister and brother for the sake of the Kingdom. Those whose hearts follow hard after Him will be those who gain access to the inner courts of the King.

I want to be a part of that.

Those who hesitate, the bible makes it abundantly clear, will not take part in the Kingdom of God but will be left behind. What has captured your heart? Everyday I ask God to show me any area where there is the least bit of hesitation. It’s one thing to say, “I’ll go anywhere you send me!” It’s yet another to actually go.

To be a part of a body of believers who perhaps smell bad, look bad, are too weird, speak in tongues, or are just uncomfortable to be around, that’s exactly where I want to be. Some people wear their yuck on the outside, others on the inside.

Jesus, more than anything in this world, I need you. Without you, I’m lost. Wrap yourself around me and transform my yuck into something You can use. Take me I’m Yours. Every bit of my yuck is Yours to beautify. I will yield to the treatments for a night with you. May I lose myself and find You.

Sandy G