But Martha was distracted with much serving, and she approached Him and said, “Lord, do You not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Therefore tell her to help me.”

And Jesus answered and said to her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things.  But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her.”

Sometimes I think we lose sight of important details when we become Christians. We get the message from church leaders that serving others is the way we mirror Jesus, when in reality, loving others is the way we do that. I’ve fallen into that trap, the trap to take on more than is healthy, upsetting the delicate balance between church and family.

Please don’t get me wrong. I believe everyone should be a part of a local body or church. I love being involved, to encourage, build and serve. But if I don’t make seeking Gods face everyday a priority, to spend time in His presence, listen for direction in my day to day living, I risk doing all that out of my flesh and not out of my spirit.

Trust me when I tell you, there is nothing I can do in and of myself. I believe that as I seek after God with all my heart and stop trying to understand Him because that’s not gonna happen, my life will be satisfying. Not just showing up daily, wanting more of His love, more of His grace, more mercy and compassion, that as I begin to fill up with Him and empty out the me, that’s when I come into my true calling, my destiny or purpose.

Galatians 2:20 NKJV “I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.”

So, this is what I’m asking, well, not me, but the Lord; “When will you answer the call I’ve placed in you to come up higher? When will you stop driving your life long enough to just spend time enjoying me? When will you allow me first place? When will I stop being an after-thought instead of always on your mind? When was the last time you laughed with me, cried with me, felt my embrace?

“I’m not a distant God. I’ve always longed to fellowship with my own, that’s why I sent my son to restore that relationship. Come, you will find all you need in me, then listen, I will send you where you’re needed. You’ll no longer be tiring yourself out and spinning your wheels. I have purpose for you.”

Oh Father, how silly of me to think I can do anything without you. I desperately need to feel Your touch, hear Your voice and know Your plans for me. I will not move from this place of worship until I hear Your voice. You never disappoint. Never. It’s my sincere desire to be used of You greater than ever before. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Sandy G