So we are convinced that every detail of our lives is continually woven together to fit into God’s perfect plan of bringing good into our lives, for we are his lovers who have been called to fulfill his designed purpose. Romans 8:28 Passion Translation
Have you ever been in the middle of a twisted mess and wondered, how can this be good? How can anything good ever come of this? But years later, you look back and see that in the end, everything worked out better than you’d expected them to.
Looking back over this past year, it’s hard to see how God can make something beautiful of what we’ve been through. In February, Walt fell and broke his back. They discovered severe stenosis in his low back but refused to fix it because he had no pain symptoms and Covid had hit. In March he had hammer toe surgery where they discovered he may have congestive heart failure. In May he went in for a triple bypass. In June, his legs kept giving out and he kept falling. In July he was readmitted to the hospital to deal with a wound that wasn’t healing. In August he fell and broke his back all the way through.
The only time I was able to see him in the hospital was February. Between May and September, he was only home for short times. I was lonely. I cried. I prayed. We had lost half our income. It was uncomfortable. The frustration of dealing with nurses and doctors by phone alone and being left out of the loop on most things was very trying. So what did I gain from all of this?
Deeper trust in a covenant keeping God.
God had been teaching me about covenant before this all happened, but I wasn’t able to grasp it all until I went through all of this. I experienced provision by my Provider. I would glance at my bills and say, “Father, we have a covenant. Your strength is made perfect in my weakness and I am weak. Thank You for providing.” And He did. Not just once. Not just twice. But each time a bill was due, the money would be there.
I learned that God doesn’t want me to live my life independently of Him, but completely dependent ON Him. He wants constant communion or communication with me. Not me taking all the time. Not whining or crying. Not hoping and wringing my hands. But confident trust that He who began a good work in me, is faithful to complete it.
Don’t ever downplay your past. It’s only a compilation of the most beautiful song of your future. You may be in the middle of something horrible and can’t see how Gods gonna use this but trust me, He has a plan.
Don’t allow the enemy to steal your song. Just one more note. One more word and your song will be complete. Hold fast to the covenant promises He said are yours.
Sing, mighty child of God! Sing from your pain! Sing from your failure! Sing with passion for a tender loving God. Your song gets more beautiful with the deep meaning it holds for you and when you sing it, it’s going to touch more lives then you can imagine. Sing!
I Hear Music,