What I Was I Am No More

Then they came to Jericho. And as He was leaving Jericho with His disciples and a large crowd, a blind beggar named Bartimaeus, the son of Timaeus, was sitting by the road.  When he heard that it was Jesus the Nazarene, he began to cry out and say, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!”  Many were sternly telling him to be quiet, but he kept crying out all the more, “Son of David, have mercy on me!”  And Jesus stopped and said, “Call him here.” So they *called the blind man, saying to him, “Take courage, stand up! He is calling for you.” Throwing aside his cloak, he jumped up and came to Jesus.  And answering him, Jesus said, “What do you want Me to do for you?” And the blind man said to Him, “Rabboni, I want to regain my sight!”  And Jesus said to him, “Go; your faith has made you well.” Immediately he regained his sight and began following Him on the road. Mark 10:46-51

What is it that you’ve been crying out for? Perhaps those around you are telling you to stop already! God’s busy! You’re bothering Him! God doesn’t heal anymore. He’s just passing by, and you’re insignificant.  You’ve been blind all your life, just accept it! Yet you keep calling out, “Jesus, have mercy on me! Jesus, have mercy on me!”

Then Jesus stopped and said, “Call him here.” What did he do next? He threw off his cloak. That cloak or uniform, labeled him a ‘blind beggar’, it was his identity. He never went anywhere without it. But the moment Jesus called to him, he threw it off. Interesting. The very thing that identified him as a blind beggar, he left behind in pursuit of Jesus.

There was nothing wrong with Barts legs or his hearing! He did what he could do and followed Jesus’ voice.  He didn’t wait for Jesus to come to him, he went to Jesus.  Stop waiting for God to do something for you. Right where you are, get up and do something for Him. Keep trusting Him, keep believing in Him, but listen to Him and keep moving.

There are some reading this today that are still wearing their old identity, their comfy clothes, the familiar, still crying out for their miracle.   But Jesus has been calling you to Himself for a long time. You can’t get what you need by staying where you are.  You have to get up out of your comfort zone and step out in faith toward the life changing power of Jesus.

When ‘Bart’ told Jesus what he wanted, Jesus gave it to him and he followed Him. If Jesus gave you what you’re asking for, would you follow Him? Would you change your vocation, your residence, would you give up your life for Him? It’s easy to say ‘YES’ when you’re desperate, but when things go back to normal, would you still follow him?

Those who cry out, “Use me!” who are willing to do what needs to be done, those are who God is looking to work through. The imperfect. The young. The old. The silly. The untalented. The failure. The smoker. The drinker. Those who have fallen on the mercy of Jesus and realize it has nothing to do with them, and everything to do with Him.

God has a job to do in the earth and wants to do it through you. He’s not looking for you to have it all together. He’s looking for those who are willing to give up their own agenda, their own goals and dreams, their ‘retirement plans’, to pick up HIS plans and follow Him.

Jesus, have mercy on me. I’m in need of You. I’m desperate for my miracle, but until it manifests, I will focus on You. I leave behind my old identity and take up Yours. I throw myself under Your mercy and grace today.  There is nothing too hard for You, so in the process, I present myself a living sacrifice for Your service. Change me into someone who thinks more about Your plans then my own. It’s in Your name I pray, Amen.




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