Sometimes we need or want something so badly that we will try to manipulate people or situations to make it happen. I should know, I have done it on many occasions myself. What have I learned from this? That getting what I want, is not always having what I need. And may I add, when I obtain it, it never satisfies me at all. I’m usually out looking for the next thing that I think will bring me joy or happiness. But since I’ve learned to focus on the Lord, rest in His promises and be satisfied with Him, the peace and joy I’ve found is overwhelming.
When I manipulate, I’m simply stealing someone else’s victory, their miracle, their blessing. When I force something to happen, I’ve closed a door in my life for God to move because I’m in the way. My desire to be in control causes me to step in front of Jesus who is leading me into truth. Let me just tell you this, being ‘in control’ is a very lonely place to be. It’s frustrating and steals everything God is trying to do in and through you. I’m learning that with each surrender comes peace, joy and a freedom I’ve never possessed before.
Recently, we sold our home and our deadline to be out was just weeks away. I was looking everywhere for a home for us to move into, but everything was priced out of range and I was feeling panicked. “Father, I’m freaking out here! I don’t know what to do or where to look anymore. Everything looks so impossible! But your Word says that You’ll never see the righteous forsaken or your seed begging bread. I’m going to do what you said, I’m turning this problem over to you. I’m not even going to look until you tell me to. I’m going to take YOUR yoke and YOUR burden, because it’s a heck of a lot lighter then mine! I trust you to work this out.”
I began each morning in praise. I continued doing what God called me to do and each time the problem got overwhelming, I simply turned to Him and said, “Father, you have this and I trust you!” 21 days before we were to be out of our house, God led me to a website search I wasn’t familiar with. It’s where I found this condo, in a place I’d never been, at the price I’d asked for. He even threw in the bonus of a gas stove which I’d wanted since I left Michigan almost 13 years ago. When Walt and I went through it, he turned to me and said, ‘This is it!’ Do you know that when I went back to find the condo to look at it again, I couldn’t even find the site? Now THAT my friend, is just how God works.
I won’t trust in money because then money will own me. I will trust in God, he will give me the money to do what HE wants me to do and give HIM the glory for it all. He’s more than enough! He’s my provider, my healer, my peace, my joy and I love Him so much! And guess what? He’s this to you as well. Stop striving and reaching for what’s on the top shelf when you have a big God who has long arms and can reach it for you.
Oh Sweet Father, how I love you. You’ve been such a gracious and wonderful provider. All glory to you and to your name forever. I don’t have to wait till I get to heaven to worship in your throne room. I’ve already got access through your Holy Spirit. I will sit with you and listen to your voice as you instruct me and show me the path to take and the words to speak over that path. No one or nothing else will take the place of you. I surrender all! It’s in Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.